Alright guys I have a few things to say.
I know I've been really erratic over the last few months. I have a lot of issues going on and I suffer from pretty severe depression. I've always avoided trying to get help because I just have never believed it will work. I have a really negative opinion of my self and by extension, any work I do. I've made friends, then lost them because when they try to help I tend to get hostile. I've always said and done a lot of really snarky things when I was feeling down and all I can really do is apologize I suppose.
Enough people kept telling me that I really needed to get help because my whole life I've followed the same self destructive patterns and I've finally looked into talking to someone. Usually I'm all talk when it comes to that stuff but I've actually already had my first session so my foot is already in the door and its a "thing" now.
Obviously nothing is going to change overnight, but hopefully with an actual outlet I'll be able to start to avoid my impulsive angry behavior that I've subjected a lot of people too. Maybe I'll get better too. I've been doodling again and I'll probably start to upload stuff again soon. If you're interested I have two tumblrs that will probably see more art. A SFW/social blog ciderarts.tumblr.com/ and
my NSFW blog hardciderarts.tumblr.com/
Both are blank right now but I'll set them up and start using them again next time I have a day off. I deleted them during my last depressive fit. I know a lot of people might not bother to read any of this, and more still might just not want anything to do with me anymore because of how I've acted. I can say that I miss a lot of the people I used to talk too. I wiped most of my contact lists when I wiped everything awhile back. If anybody cares to bug me I'm Cider.Dash on skype. Talk to you all later.